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Outing with sheperd n sheepmate^^
Hey Peps, wa today shiok shiok gonna hav free sakae treat from poh...was told tat 2pm meet at tm mrt so morning i do my hw then go meet them...2pm walk to mrt then saw ed n yz reach le so wait for poh....wa piang he so late-_- so we went to starhub there wait for poh n lol they go there for free cold drink n free show[Wall E] haha... i msg my sheperd n sheepmate earlier tat all wear green then stupid ed very wat lor nvr follow...then everyone wear except him-_- stupid brown haha...lol walk around at tm saw alot of ppl mostly wear green...so chiao haha...then walk walk till 3pm then go sakae at CS...sian sia nt really close conversation with them...haix zhe me ban how am i going to survive with them when i'm so quiet...i don dare to approach to them...3pm le we went to sakae n ordered alot but mostly ordered is lyk wasted...haha the poh la! buy so many miso soup jus to cover the junk food...fun arh haha...then er xing la lyk when u r very full then u see those slimy, squashy feeling...EEkk...my fav food is chawamushi mohahaha...so yummy!! wa piang poh damm disgusting sia keep store food inside his mouth! simply worst than a pig muhahaha...lol the edwin also another one but nt jia lat than poh haha...lol then keep giving poor feedback...haix ed n poh so devil...mi n yz so guai nvr ka jiao...then poh pay the food is so ex sia! heart pain for him...$100 plus siol...feel so ps sia next time wont go so ex place eat with him...haha then went to tm arcade...wow saw shang bo n others...wow 1st time see shang bo dance para para so ai zai sia!!! he dance abit kua zhang but he really pro la...then play afew games n go home le...lol sian sia jus a treat n play at arcade onli...lol then go wallet shop see any nice wallet...saw one la which is $29...haha poh waited for me which i don noe y...then go tgt to the traffic light then seperate le....reach home msg poh then start to blog n use facebook...haix heard tat sat no cell but outing at ECP so next week then ask hw lor...haha hope can finish up all my hw...sad sch reopen soon le really hope my back cut wont get caught... as for usual, do quiet time n nitz....Thank You Poh Huat for a wonderful treat^^ tats all folks, Justin
Busy days coming to me soon...
Hey Peps, 2009 is a great experience with...i learn more to be independent n the walk with God...haha 2010 coming le, i don noe wat will happen coz i noe sec3 le, going to hav alot of things to study n stress to me is getting more n more...I jus pray tat time is unlimited for me with God^^ i will stay strong n be more on fire with God...haha alright today work 3pm but its 2.30pm actually so i late...haha ty God nvr kana scolded coz too many crew today n some is from downtown east attach to t2 mac work... wow adilah today mood nt very gd so nvr talk to her well haha n i work stalker, fries n runner...wa lunch got sushi eat sia coz the auntie go buy de then treat us eat...muhaha jus rmb tat tmr is poh treat at sakae...hehe cant wait sia^^ work 3pm-11pm n had invited 4ppl to christmas party^^ plus very tired sia coz walk around for so long:( then at nith very ps coz i heard joel shout at me HEY JUSTIN! wa piang all the customer look at me siol...ps haha then saw poh n jasmin too...very happy to see poh YEAH~~~ action haha...then ran to t3 mac take MCflurry cup n cap...damm tired haha then saw janet...11pm going home then go t3 mac 1st n find janet go home tgt...we chat alot n 18th will get pay so very happy haha...then sure go shopping at bugis street...maybe on tues ba haha...then bump adilah n rosy in bus...diao got misunderstood tat janet was my gf-_- haha then heard from janet tat joel n others went to t3 eat then tio caught saw janet at t3 mac working haha... lol today alot of indians at t2 arriving home siol...reach home abt 12am then bath le n blogging...do quiet time n nitz...lol msg poh tat y came airport n he said got core meeting so oo...sad worh go eat at t3 nvr cum t2 eat haha... tats all folks, justin
Tricko treat^^
Hey peps, wow thurs gonna hav free sakae treat from Poh...I CANT WAIT!!! haha don noe how much will it cost but hope nt let money against our happy mood outing...1st time sheperd n sheepmate outing sure gonna take alot of pics de^^ really happy tat poh invited me to sakae coz i nt really long with him n b4 i turn to his sheep he had already planned so really glad of his treat^^ wa sch reopen soon le so hw mus faster get it down:( haha ed lost his hw lol... wa shiok sia jus heard tat poh saw wu zun at ION orchard...haha 4pm went off to work... haix got to go budget terminal work coz nt enough crew...diao i go try lor also 1st time going there so quite excited...haha once go there, oh gosh the ppl to me is lyk retard n scary...some quite selfish nvr help n some jus simply ignore u...the place is super damm small to work...how would i wish to go t2 work sia... then really feel sian sia work all the way till 10pm... haha nvm la i jus keep thinking of cell lor haha...work fries n lobby... yea i brought my lunchbox to work...quite nice:) more food for me to eat...haha no la:) then 10pm took bus home...reach home abt 10.40pm...chat with poh awhile haha then bath...do quiet time n nitz.... tats all folks, justin
Awesome day^^
Hey peps, wa christmas is coming...New yr is coming... Muhahaa money money comes by! it making me crazy:) wake up at 11am then use com lor then go eat lunch with my mum...then took bus to work...while in the bus to airport, i've been thinking of happy things tat my cell care for me moments...lyk yz my best care sheepmate muhaha he consult me n pray for me worh n sean he also pei me quite well plus joel n jeremy lovely hug^^ jasmin pei me n jing wen laughter plus poh brainwashing me...haha ed i wont forget u...lol jus find something to add on haha yr lovely tagged at blog^^ seriously very gan dong from the cell^^ today work as runner n fries quite slack haha...but the stupid hisyam n huzaifa keep bully me lor haha i also bully the gals...diao-_-! work till 9pm n rush home...haha cook noodle coz hungry..duh...ya lah n really hope more cell outing coming soon n my hw will be done soon^^ nth to share as per normal do quiet time n nithz.... tats all folks, justin
Look at the BRIGHT side^^
Hey Peps, how shall i start? alright i was taking bus to church and bumped jasmin in a same bus...ate chicken rice and tio stomach ache very jia lat...so whole day nvr speak to ppl...sad:( i was ok with my feelings jus tat my stomach make me feel gao wei...i honestly say tat i was trying to use my stomach ache prob for excuse nt to talk...the meaning is lyk in yr heart u really wan to talk with tis person but u jus don noe how to start... i hav alot of doubts in life...i'm too timid to go for something unless its my 2nd try...i will really try my best to go for the 1st try... i noe the image may look scary but once u tried everything is going to be fine... i hope my heart will be open up more n step a higher level with God... today service is quite short arh nvm...after service, had a talk with poh... tis feeling is very stress n i was scared tat the feeling is lyk ytd scolding so creep:( after the talk, i feel wisdom came to me n i feel more understanding with my cell... starting is abit malu but facing the facts now is better than keeping prob n nt solve it...i found out myself tat sometimes i do things nvr think twice n don even noe y am i doing it... i hope tis will be a lesson learnt...next i going home, coz later have to work...then had a great talk with samantha in the bus and mostly talk abt gossip lol...haha at least tis is my 1st try talking to someone... then while walking home, God wake me up...deep down God says to me, face to the bright sight! God jus gave me a simple meaning and had let me throw away all my sadness...LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIGHT! i will rmb tis meaning and called my betrayer friend n told her straight.... Wat reason tat makes u hate me so much? Wat purpose to gain by keeping things to against me? i keep chant her and finally she nth to say n i heard she suddenly cried...i was stumbled! slowly comfort her when i was in the bus to airport n gd news is we became friends...i flip to my bible n saw tat Love Yr ENERMY in luke6:31... seriously it proves tat:) i hope looking at the bright sight will return my smile:) off to work till 9pm... went home praise the lord n nitz.... Poh: hey, i don noe y i keep saying i cant feel the love from you...is it becoz b4 tat things jus keep on puzzling my heart...mind jus stressing me up...i promise i will open my heart n really talk to ppl more...tis will be my challenge from you and i will keep it to my heart tat i still hav cell who keep supporting me^^ i can do it^^ don worry abt me le i will nt let u disappoint...ty being there for me^^ ty for the scolding^^plus my betrayer friend, actually she is my good friend, nt the best, n in the past we had gone through things tgt n share prob with each other...the reason we became enermies is becoz there is another gal who ka jiao my good friend's mind then end up something happen with me n her then end up enermy lor...shall nt say too exact coz i don wan things to get worst:) tats all folks, justin
who am I in tis world?
Hey Peps, i shall quit saying sian tis word...i don wan to be sian... i was working then rush to Jabez house...late abt 10min...suddenly bumped ed n garr at the bus stop... i said hi to them...garr respond to me but ed didn't...i thought we had patched back through msn but it sounds tat he still hates me... i feel worried n my heart feel puzzled... i don noe wat to do but keep myself quiet... i noe later will be having a scolding from poh n decided to control my feelings... i sitting aside n staring around hoping tat ed will later talk to me...yet it nvr happen so i noe he still hates me..i hav my own ans n don wish to talk but keep myself tightly so am i insecure?... past is past...i felt guilt scolding vulgar n being rude...wat shall i do to make him forgive me? i have many many troubles in my heart n nt just tis... i feel struggled n helpless...don noe who to account with...i will account to God but i also still ned a best friend to account in physically...the fact is i have none... jia juan is my only best friend but she is nt around... i wish her a happy badae coz today is her badae haha... i wan to account someone who i always trust n respect... i jus don noe y? i only close with gals but nt boys...is it becoz boys is too rough for me....i'm jus lyk a weak mouse tat ned someone to take care n concern... cell grp today is very on fire n i hope tis wont affect from my brokenness...God is my last hope...if i don hav his presence i would be lonely 4ever.... there is no worthy friends in tis world but God... i jus don noe y who am i in tis world? i hoping everyday hav a happy moments to keep but my life is totally different... i feel lyk a empty shell where ppl around me jus kick it around n don feel my presence tat I'm a living thing but a toy... after cell grp, we went to Melville park n i slack over there alone, preparing to face poh scolding and i found out one thing when i was at the basketball court alone... i found out only ed is my only pal from the cell who is really noe my presense and entertain me well...becoz of a foolish quarrel i ended up losing the one tat i should cherish on...he is the only one tat so called close to me which better than being myself alone... once being called out to see poh...he scolding is super super horrify me... y my anger jus giv me alot of trob which is unnecessarily to be happen...i hate myself! i jus couldnt forgive myself for being a loser who think myself a winner...i regret saying alot of harsh word at ed...i hope he really fogive me totally...y am i so aggitated for the prayer meeting? i'm nt part of changkat n y i am so selfish? i only get attention when i hav trob? if i'm having a great happy moments in my life, is it still being alone where i'm nt in the presence from this world? i don wan to be alone but no choice to be alone...i wan to have friends to talk with but there is none for me...i choose to seek a friend to be close with me but there is none suitable... i really wan to cried it out to remove my pain....is very easy for me to cry anytime coz i feel weak n depress...is it everything started of moving me with poh as sheperd n sheep? is it the jealousy tat keeps my life torture each day? am i going to see my sheperd n sheepmate having fun everyday where i feel myself being extra if i join them? i don wan to get deep from my jealousy, i wan to grow even better with the walk of faith in God... i felt having a sheperd lyk don feel his presence with me...so is it without a sheperd or having it is no difference coz the reason is i nvr felt his LOVE... its been a few months with him and yet the feeling with him is jus lyk the starting of knowing him in one or two days... i noe if he read tis he sure heart-broken but for me is a final fact tat me n him....even if i said sry for a million times but my heart, my brokeness is still arounds me n couldnt take out... i had too much burden in me as i don noe how to handle my life... even if i get scolded tat i nvr did wrong, i still accept it coz i had given up my fairness in tis world...WORLD IS UNFAIR SINCE I WAS BORN....my smile no longer exist in tis world but even if i smile, tat is nt my real smile but i force to it...i may sound so dramatic, who cares? i wan my real life be back, a life with a smile in it! but when will i recieve it permantly n nt temporily... SORRY to the one i being rude! Sorry to the one i been acting childish infront of you! Sorry tat i waste my time with you! God bless me for no vulgar n rudeness life in me plus get rid of my drinking habit.... I feel weak, feel dying soon... tats all folks, justin
Friday-bad mood....
Hey peps, wa sian diao sia after the camp whole day i was in a bad mood...y mus tis bad mood keep coming after me? seriously i hate to get angry-_- actually today hav pm at nick house which starts at 12.30pm where ed last nith msg back...so i keep praying tat my work will end 12plus so i could go for pm...coz usually i end work at abt 2.30pm...hey the next day i went to work which is today, i indeed finish work at 12.30pm i was so happy to hear tis great news so i msg ed tat i will be going pm, call him nt to bang sei me...after awhile i go check my hp while working, i saw he wrote 10am and i called him so he said it change to 10am...i was then bad mood lor coz at 1st i was working as runner then 12.30pm punch out ready to go pm...coz of his stupid nonsense has coz me a big trouble which i ned to beg my manager to continue work...if i nvr punch out at 12.30pm i still working as runner...so after i punch in again, i was told to wash all the trays in an hr...u guess how many trays i had to wash? at least a 400!!! no joke! coz the lobby ppl none of them doing trays!!! i was sian diao mus wash so many trays, dry up le still mus put at the counter area...it kills me! my both shoulders has injured, muscle cramp, becoz of his selfishness i had so much work today... around 2pm i beg manager to change me back as runner...then another manager jus came named wong who is so called ah gua manager...i was tio bully by him!!! i jus work as runner then he called me to go wash all the trays again! i said my both shoulders had injured...he said i was giving excuse n scolded me for nth!!! hey who is the one in the morning clean the trays? IS ME ALRIGHT! without me there will be even more trays lyk 600plus...ITS INSANE!!! Fuck you ed becoz of u i get scolded for nth! becoz of u i was get bullied by a sissy manager! becoz of yr selfishness it shows i'm nt part of changkat PM...THEN FINE NEXT TIME I WONT BE GOING WAT STUPID PM COZ I NT PART OF CHANGKAT! i was super angry in mac by keep washing trays and i was being bride by the gay where i recieve $10 voucher at airport which is only $10, nt fair! then saw nick, andrew, austin, kian hao, grace, joshua kong, yok foong, audrey at t2 mac eat...3.30pm going home le which is lyk at last coz i damm worn out!!! then go see my duty list where one whole week i don hav any duty!!!! CCB i no ned holiday lor KNN the manager BS arh coz of the misunderstandings mus torture me lyk tat meh! i NED MONEY SIA! seriously now i noe ppl in tis world is selfish! they jus think of themselves!!! reach home slp till nith then use com... do quiet time then nithz.... tats all folks, justin
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