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Hey Peps,
wow its 31-12-09 which is the last day of 2009 le...I'm super excited for the great countdown at nith...the feeling now is so crazy for 2010... 2010 will be the time for us gerners in sec sch gonna be crazy for God in a higher faith n preach to the sch mates in sch le...wow time really go fast haha...yea my physic hw indeed left it at janet house so tmr get it back from her... morning work late again-_- hope i really not late in future...i found out in the 1st place tat, b4 nt knowing well the manager in mac...i thought the nice guy is wei zheng only while others is the bad guys...now i noe them well n its the other way round...so Wei zheng is the true evil!!! haix don wan talk abt him man! make me sick-_-!!! today do counter again...shiok sia! after work, go home rest till 6pm wake up then get ready n took bus to siglap find the cell for dinner...lol me, ed, yz all blur toad cant find them...you noe wat edwin the funny guy walk all the way front n cant see a food-court right beside him-_- his the worst stupid guy ever haha... then eat sambal fried rice lol nt nice n ex worh~~~ b4 yz n ed nvr come yet, so me, vin n poh seating another table...lol we r quiet n can even hear flies buzzling around... diao i at least talk to vin but poh nth sia...so failure of me...once yz come, wa poh suddenly change another character, turn so hyper with him and talk to him 1st....lol am i jealous-_-! no la jus say for fun coz more update marh n story longer ba le haha...don worry i'm fine^^ keep hearing music lor then kana tio meh from poh haix sometimes i feel he so bossy but noe he is telling me in a concern... after eat le, take bus to church...yea countdown le^^ 1st reach church i took many light stick but not worse than the gals haha...i childish de-_-! then play with the trumpet lyk hell haha.... then hav a short cerment from pas. yang n learn nt to be compromise...then sing to the lord very happy n then we had a stop clock on the screen....when we count 10 to 0 le, everyone shout la n cheer...sing praise song n end...some went to BBQ n some went to friend's house n over night n some go home...once zone1 outside, me n yuwen plan to take taxi n drop at tm...ty god caught in the last bus to home...so safe money haha then sad for ed,yz n garr mus take taxi...reach home is lyk going to 2am so b4 tat call the mac tat tmr scared couldnt wake up to work then lol its the devil speaking on the phone as in my evil manager haha...he shouted at me say cannot! wa piang heartless sia i damm tired how to work? so plan nt to slp for 24hr...jus use com for the next morning then prepare work lor...wish u guys a Happy New Year^^
tats all folks,
Justin

Hey Peps,
haha tmr will be the actual day of countdown 2010 le whooo yea.... haha so excited sia but don feel lyk watching the same show with cell leh...tmr cell outing will be watching chipmunks 2...lol i don wan 2 watch,waste money-_-! haha today mood is quite happy^^ haha 1st time do counter for 5hrs^^ shiok sia doing counter n u mus try the feeling sia! haha sch is reopening soon le sian the janet lost my physic hw sia! hope she find it back for me...today nth special leh:( sian sian day lor nth to do...haix the poh so gd everyday got fun thing to go...should i go bbq tmr? don wan ba... then 2pm go home... reach home i jus feel lyk praying...my life getting mess up soon le...the reason should be I keep hearing secular ba...haix the JJ lin fault lah go ad Di ji ge 100tian! the song super nice sia! haix so reach home praise n worship the lord...getting crazier by each song and do quiet time....i feel quite holy n steady le but after a nap its lyk still empty for me...how shall i make a break through? keep praying ba:) hey find anything new? haha i jus change my blog skin le...tats y i name make a change...haha a new yr mus hav new thing lol... hehe holy background worh nt bad larh hope u guys lyk it^^ 1more day to 2010 le lets get excited^^
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
today no work:) i hav slept till 12pm...shiok wat a great beauty sleep haha^^ 1st time sleep well n tis few weeks seriously very tired....ty god i'm off today...Gonna buy sch shoe n cut hair today...really sian at home so do some of my hw, nt really finish but finish soon le^^ after eat lunch with my mum, go snip avenue cut hair...Wat the~~~ wat a long queue sia! waited for 1hr sia:( msg to poh where he going? lol nvr go escape again haha but heard he say going to watch avatar with ed,yz n garr plus a friend...alright recieve this msg confirm for a normal person feel jealous at 1st de marh...arh nvm la i also don feel lyk watching even if they jio me....haix i think i'm jus don hav a great time with someone in tis mth holiday.... tis holiday mth i jus work n work...without work also jus wasted my days being board at home...i jus no one in tis world:( Ty god tis holiday only Janet n shu hui who is there pei me outing lor... 2more days to 2010 le...tis thurs going to hav countdown...lets hope 2010 will make my life better... i feel unsafe some ppl read my blog...gonna change my blog link soon... i don wan ppl interfere my life...
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
i hav some trouble in me which i feel doubt quite a time...seriously u ask me wat trouble i hav? i will ans I don noe? haha really don noe wats my problem...but 1 thing i noe is my distance with God suddenly getting further n further...I feel sleepy lor...really feel sian abt me le...took bus 27 then saw Janet took the same bus as me...wow so chiao haha^^ we chat quite okok....better than talking with cell lyk talking with zombie... haix i hate talking to cell when they keep asking me stupid question...wa sound very rude:( haha ps la but the cell jus keep asking me how are you? how is the service? lol don feel lyk ans them liao sia! haix feel sian sian sia....reach mac do runner lor...wa piang always keep kana molested from a fat lady who is a flirter.... haix hate working morning with her sia! suay-_-!!! lol huzaifa so fast promote to kitchen liao where i work longer than him:( wa piang i still at runner sia:( nt fair when i do counter??? sian la:( reach home practise guitar till 6.15pm then took bus to 201 mac meet joel to teach me maths...haha really feel pleased tat they really put alot of effort to help me:) especially Jeremy his such a wizzi man:) so smart sia! haha joel nt bad la teach me well in chem... then went to CS food court meet jeremy la... learnt alot of knowledge from my ldrs... YES! 3more days coming 2010 le muhahaha going to outreach le steady arh^^ Go Telok Kurau Sec^^ Prosperity burger n twister fries is coming on the 1st jan so catch it^^ wa poh papa go escape sia so gd...actually i also wanna play too but he nvr jio me haha jk la...all Lao jiao who wan sei haha.... then finish everything at 10pm then go home le....tmr nvr work gonna sleep very long sia! slp until very shiok^^ haha Joel go facial sia muhahaha...very sad for my nephew who is jus 2yrs old tat hav alot of family problem... feel sad for my aunt tat marry a phycho husband... her husband said 2path for her...1st quit her job n move back to condo n stay n cannot live with grandma...2nd Divorce... my aunt last nith cry lyk hell sia! worry of her...haix wat kind of husband is he....he think is a joke of having a family...so childish act of choosing a path of divorce...We humans mus hav own freedom...but he haix....God bless her le:) hope by tmr finish my hw....
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
had a great talk with my manager....i keep get scolding from my manager of changing schedule...i told them nt to work on sun only and had a condition from them...is tat when sch reopen i still mus work for them....told poh tat every sun i wont work...i don feel good ytd n today...seriously i confirm i feel dryness with God n nt with the cell presense at all...it was told tat today had 1st service to go n it will be share from pas. Yang abt the vision in 2010...i noe its a gd msg but i overslept n late...i feel hopeless at myself...none of each day i had a great slp...i'm hopeless n gd for nothing tat y i keep tio dai ji...had a great quarrel from poh...i noe i'm at fault but prob is....haix shall nt say....i really feel going to faint any moment...i don noe when will i be with cell....when will i cant hang on in the word of God...feel lyk dropping le...i don feel support le....tis cause me to be Emo? work pressure? i keep asking myself! everyday ask myself! y am i so scared to talk to someone? Y am i afraid to know new people? Y am i so insecure in life? Y am i look sissy at things? i don dare to talk...each moment looking at people had a great talk, a feeling to ask them how they start with the conversation...i feel insecure when people had a doubt at me.... went to church simply jus keep hearing songs n nvr talk to anyone...did talk but nt much....wrote to 11ldrs in zone1 abt wishes at 7th floor carpark...its a surprise for them...then we changed to katong there eat....me n ed ordered chicken chop rice...ordered drink n he own me $1.30....then waited very long coz a customer ordered 13packet of western-_-!!! eat le very full then go church for the 3rd service...i get a nap over there...poh jus simply wake me up don wan me to slp...haix then PnW lor...although its our last sun in 2009 but i don seem to get ready to life... today share abt shine...lol don really noe wat the pastor saying...very sleepy so draw on the paper...then got stung afew times from poh...irritating-_-!!! after service, got letter from ldrs...very touched haha^^ then took whole green zone1 pics...wow 2day sure a great family pics...then go subway eat...lol super emo seriously wat a worst day ever...ldrs aks me wat happen to me jus to say i'm tired lor actually i feel myself strange in cell le...really happy today only edwin keep approaching me n talk to me...i don care is any1 asking him to talk to me or didnt but really happy tat i still hav someone know i'm there...my biggest hope is to talk to poh...i jus don noe y? coz he is my biggest fear to talk to him...actually if anyone sheperds me i jus feel scared to talk to the person... reach home, i stare at the gift from my ldrs which had a pic la....stare for 30min without blinking...amazing! Memories jus came to me....the knowledge from them tat had been teaching me.... i feel happy with them but jus don noe how to express the really me with them jus lyk with Janet n shu hui those kind of friendly talk... i found my ans which is sound abit sinful but tis is wat really me...if i could talk to a person well, there mus be bad words in me....bad attitude toking....lol it sounds bad bad boi of me....i really hope there is someone in cell who is an angel to giv me a helping hand to hold me on...then watch Singapore Idol final show...winner is Sezairi...Well Done:) then had a great slp n tmr work...
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
Yea today its the Christmas event...whooo i'm so excited! morning wake up n went to work...today at last do harsh brown n fries hahaha...my fav^^ but too oily le so sad
:( haha today wear all green muhahaha.... yea also gonna wear my green converse shoe...1st time:) afew nt happy things coming back to me.... all coz the news at mac saying something nt really good at me...i don wan say le...don wish to spoil my mood...when its 3pm, i changed le then rush to t3 find Janet n shu hui as they promise me to go my church event^^ wa piang they very slow sia! in the end cant help the backstage:( lol they learning to cook prosperity burger...so gd sia they can eat the burger liao:) wa took bus to church is lyk jus nice 5pm lol...then took a seat then see all the performance show la then till 7pm finish...quite sian leh lol...wa ty to jasmin tat she bless me her guitar...really shiok la haha...lol show off my green shoe at edwin haha...so funny sia the act of his jealousy...muhahah feel shiok:) but i also jealous of his slipper coz hav his name in it...i wan my name in it also sia:( haha then took some pics then go katong laksa eat with Janet n shu hui...lol both of them still nt get save haix...after eat le took bus 12 to Melville park then called poh to ask him how to go semei CC...then took bus 9 n he pick me to go there... lol actually i feel sian going there lyk wasted to go there...nt bad la at least see some funny show...haha u believe tat garrick nvr eat half boiled egg b4? he nvr sia lol...but when he taste it without mix the egg arh haha..haha his reaction is so funny tat u couldnt imagine...then vin go put the soy sauce in the green tea cup...then garrick thought is green tea n he drink it...MUHAHAHAH! so funny sia haha he so innocent lol...then go home le...lol they keep kicking the bird lyk a football...so heartless sia! lol then went home le... once i reach home, i feel my loneliness is back...i jus keep on hearing music with my headphone....i nvr interact well with cell...i feel i'm nt ready to get a higher lvl in 2010...wat a FAILURE of me......
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
today hav alot of fun jus tat nt happy tat today nvr work! Argh! haha double pay marh haha...alright today plan le:) ITS CHRISTMAS muahaha....ppl jus keep spamming Christmas msg haha....fun n super cool^^ wow plan tat me, yu zhong, Garrick n Edwin to catch a movie..decided to watch Alvin n the chipmunks 2^^ haha but i hav double happiness during Christmas which are my Nephew badae n celebrate christmas^^ sadly is i couldnt help merri for the props coz i got to deco my Nephew house a badae party... feel sad couldn't join them but i'm sure tmr gonna help out haha...i really happy tat Janet n shu hui decided to cum my christmas event haha...really hope they will get save n i believe they will get save man! after a long deco, i went home bath le then go UOB bank withdraw money then meet up with Garrick at cinema...we bought 12.50pm ticket in the C row...help yz n ed buy 1st...ate at mac which is odd tat is i'm the one who eat only-_-!!! but nvm still got my back up ed...he acts lyk my trash haha help me clear things away fast...so it is refering him a pig or a trash??? lol anyway once we meet, grace n Nick said wanna join but ticket sold fast so no choice onli we 4...haix they keep talking abt dota...lol my mind simply went empty haha...WAT ARE THEY SAYING? lol then we went to the cinema bought meal...they 3 bought hotdog but i bought the chipmunks combo so is $11 which had a pic on the cup...cute^^ haha the show ad is super long....zzz wanna slp liao haha...diao 86min show is sure short but we enjoyed coz the chipmunks is too cute haha...after watching, went to looney toons buy gift for my Nephew...tis yr she gonna be 2 yrs old haha wow time past fast...haha the wrapper so cute...wow wat a cute day i've explore....haha then go Toy R Us to buy the poo keychain...wa ed treat me worh haha...then went to find Nick at Kopitiam...for the outreach thingy....then for awhile went to zinc shop as Ed gonna buy a bag for himself...lol none suits him then Go 77th street to see how lor...lol then something happen...then i go le...went to Nephew house...talk to my cousin n sian sian la...wa they go lan sia! I WAN! jus tat cant leave coz party starting soon...lol wasted sia should stay longer with them...wa piang today my nephew suddenly keep crying out loud for nth...she turn mad lol...then ate alot of food muhahaha....then cut the cake....haha sweet 2009 JEWEL:) HAPPY BADAE JEWEL:) haha recieve 20msg of christmas blessing haha...great:) plus tmr will gonna be exciting coz its my church christmas event...tmr gonna be green man! Wishing all of u reader a HAPPY MERRY CHRISTMAS:)
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
overslept again-_- haix 8.30am start work till 4pm... today work quite angry sia! Although i work runner in 1st place but once doing lobby...haiz...b4 the boi do lobby, he nvr clear the trash which look lyk 2story mountain plus trays....wa piang nt enough lobby ppl so told my manager...he said don giv him trouble so i hack care do the tray 1st while the auntie go take care outside...i kana shouted from my manager...scolded me wat i wan! WAT I WAN! wa piang he crazy or wat sia...ho sey la nt enough ppl wat got wrong meh! wa piang shout at me then all ppl keep asking me wat happen-_- lol y always tio tai ji? y manager keep buay kien me? keep putting morning shift! reach home le very sian sia don noe do wat:( haiX then sent blessing to everyone a happy merry christmas as tmr will be the actual christmas^^ yea haha wa today is the starting of alvin n the chipmunks 2 going to watch man! haha sian janet watch liao hope she going to watch again:( here am i to wish everyone of u a Happy Merry Christmas:)
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
morning wake up n my mum prepare for me breakfast to take away to mac eat...so touched^^ in the morning she did for me without any repay^^ haha then bath le go work...late for 10min...work as runner n lobby..sad sia keep throw trash:( haha good mood for today nt bad:) around noon, had orientation at mac tat those who work for 1mth is a confirm crew...wow then got free drink n ordered medium ice milo^^ had a long video n speech from manager which make me fall asleep...haha^^ then go do stalker till 3.30pm go home...lol then go home straight n rest...si bei sian sia coz my crew friend name hisyam...he very B sia say bagus when i going home...wth wat kind of attitude sia! B sia! anyway lin jun jie got his new album name 100 tian[100days] haha the song is nice^^ then go home rest le, took bus to church but i was quite late...lol nvr knew tat poh n wilbert help out too...haha forget to wear black lol...then fri gonna be the actual day for the event so may God bless tat our work will done smoothly n success^^ lol poh today don noe y suddenly so hyper of doing dirty things...haix he always a ti koh to me, so sad:( wa piang he keep pinch my %#^&
haha shall nt say coz too private to me:( lol then went home at 8plus its lyk go for nth coz i at 1st carry the birds but too short so help them the table thingy...diao looks lyk i'm extra in there lor but nvm who care's haha...aiya nvr take pic sian...haha 2010 is coming in a weeks time n time is running out fast...mus faster do my hw finish... haha left maths, social study n sci ba...yea left 3^^ haha went home le, don noe wat poh going with them later...had fun with him^^ 1st time haha...wat he will react if he knew tis lol...y coz use something to hit his chicago...diao keep say his chicago big! lol don noe how big should be 9cm ba haha...lol y am i getting dirty sia! mus hav influence from my dirty sheperd haha...things happen at nith shall nt say later tio dai ji...haha told poh lol...reach home 11plus then nitz....
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
wow cool today is Dong jie..in chinese la haha but in eng means chinese ppl celebration...haha i don noe how to explain but happy tat shu hui sent me a wishing of tis haha...today work morning again...brought my lunch box-curry rice:) Yummy:) haha work lobby again...Arggghh!!! after break at last do runner:)lol morning do lobby giv a glummy face to customer tio call from manager...diao for wat ppl wanna see our mouth to hav a smile...retarded ppl-_- lol our mac got breakdown for afew sec...after work, went to t3 find janet n do hw tgt...lol we did physic but jus for afew question tats all...haix tmr will make a cell video^^ very excited wat it end up haha... then go foodcourt eat...lol we super freezing cold so bought Laksa to eat haha...then meet up chat for awhile then do xi shua shua dance for them at carpark...lol i don noe y did a dance for them...haha too hyper liao-_- then took bus home...haix keep working morning sure very tired...overslept in the bus then got stunned coz i almost went to sengkang...so ty god drop near tampines ave 6...took 72 back to int then walk home...lol lol day haha... wow janet n shu hui wear thier new clothing n bags...so fast haha^^ yea hope tis sat i would really invite many ppl to church for christmas....
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
morning overslept again...reach work do lobby...lol i think Gary buay song me...haix keep ask me to do lobby, i really feel pissed off keep doing tat...anyway called janet n she said 2day going bugis street to buy tee n pants...haha after work, go use my $10 voucher to buy mac n treated them haha see i so gd:) went to Tm bought converse shoe n Topman tee^^ then go Bugis street buy Bag, wallet, clothes, pants and many more...haha withdraw $200 so fast spended all...diao bank left $60:( haha nvm still working hard to get pay...shop more soon man^^ haha we took pics at the christmas tree very shiok...many bags carrying so heavy haha 1st time feel so shiok:) shop many stalls whoooo.... then went to Yonomoshi shop eat...haha taste great but the counter got tis guy is so gay..he sounded lyk a female which looks lyk sec3-4...oh no is he hormosexual haha...lol i allergic to prawn then shu hui n janet keep joke me sia lol...sad:( after tat, 11pm reach home keep well my things...yes at last i hav my harvestsack:) haha still ned to buy small pouch bag n checkerboard tee...muhahaha fashion again:)
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
lol i was overslept again..don noe y? still fell sleepy as if i'm in cloud no.9 haha...8am start work...12.30pm get changed n took bus to church... haix i was late to church...oo gosh...reach church abt 2pm n everyone started praise n worship...haha seat wrong area then poh called me to seat with the cell boys...today pastor rubert share his cerment abt don get comfy with God...it means don get slack in the walk with God...seriously tis week i feel slack but nt really jus tat nvr read bible...God i jus pray u will giv me a compassion to read the word of Yours...after the cerment, we had pray ina grp abt sch n for the christmas event is coming soon...while praying, God says to me...when will my friends get save?! i felt so guilt tat if i nvr heat up the iron fast, my friends will get more deep in the darkness and wont met the light...i really hope tat using tis christmas event will invite many of my friends plus they really get touched from God...i really had a feeling tat Jia juan, Janet, Shu hui n xin hui will really accept christ in cornerstone and some of my mac friends...i really hope the spread of love will be everlasting and the message will be more powerful to wake the ppl's mind...after service, we had a rehearse for the event....so me,vin,sean n merri help the props...the show look pretty cool n awesome...so the cell went katong eat then go take care the stalls for the christmas thingy...today ed nvr cum church,had went malaysia...hope he hav fun:) as for yu zhong, he looks very tired...hope he rest well:) haix dota kills them! gonna shop crazy soon:) hw hope to finish soon too:) then after the rehearsal, i went home 1st...reach home n use pc:)haha really hope i can slp early n wake early tmr:)
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
very sleepy sia today...haix later got to work so early plus hav cell outing...but i look more forward to cell outing at ECP^^ so morning woke up and gone for work...7am to 12pm...diao tio scolding for nth from manager...ytd called Jolyn le she lyk hack care wat I'm saying so no choice for nt info well...so i got reason to off earlier...actually work 7am to 1pm...then 11.30am eat for my break n faster change...took bus to church and i'm the last to reach...so ps guys hahaha...then its raining heavily so we prayed stop the rain...so we went to auditorium eat then me,john n poh go 7-11 buy drink...haha then eat very happy la haha got my fav drink fuji apple^^next with hav the cell call grp pics n cell pics...then continue to our journey to ECP while its drizzling...praise God la coz rain is stopping^^ wanted to rent skate but cant coz raining:( so gd Sean brought his own! jealous la see him playing...hahaha so rent bike lor...diao so ex sia buy from the big splash! 1hr $6!!! then go buy fillet meal at the hut enjoy eating...while ed jus rent his bike happily go play himself...wa piang b4 tat Joel go kill the weirdo fish which head looks lyk cat fish n the body looks lyk an eel...wa he use the stone go dig out his internal body parts...eewww if u sees tat! lol ed n yz go take video-_-!!! then some go home 1st...after at ecp, ed n yz go home 1st...while others go support at the X'mas stalls in church...we went for dinner which i'm quite full so jus order onion ring n omelette...although i'm talking with melissa, sean n others but feel abit sad coz i nvr approach to my sheperd when he is aside...haix there is jus a stranger feeling with him:( how shall i be close with him? then heard poh tat su tieng n yok fong performing so told me to record for me... help him record lor:)then feel sian all the way...feel lyk going home n slp...lol then they say go theatre coz jeremy wan giv some present n mus one by one go...so i seat aside waiting lor...once my turn, i jus feel something fishy...once reach the theatre, got prank by them doing inappropriate manner...ty God they nvr prank me so~~~~ but other boys is *cough *cough....saw them record in the youtube using webcam...i feel so disappointed even jeremy as a zone ldr also do tis kind of horny stuff idea...its so shameful seeing tis kind of childish act infront of the youngers one...i cant take it while kian hao said in the youtube records...wat gay wat something?couldnt rmb.... haix went out without a bb let jeremy n joel worried thought i'm angry abt tis...actually i am but jus don wan stir up unwanted prob...lol tmr mus go auditorium after service see jeremy...sure talk abt tis-_- he create de still wan a talk...lol-_-!!! should hav gone home with ed n yz at ECP:(
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
very sian...Very boring... nth to do...WAT SHaLL I DO? wa overslept sia actually should wake up at 5am but in the end wake up at 6.40am...haha change shift to 8am...work 8am till 4.30pm...yes man i got my 2nd pay n its abt $300plus haha...shiok can go jalan shopping...buy many many clothes $.$ haha...today morning work quite angry sia...one of my classmates name huzaifa work same runner as me...i hate his attitude work as a runner...he simply keep rushing don noe wat n very rude too...he scold the auntie shut up when its his fault...haix then spill the coke all over on the floor where there is so many customer...sian sia wat on his mind! give so much trouble...shiok sia tmr gonna hav cell outing at ECP! CANT WAIT! hahha hope i can play well my roller skate^^ hope poh would fall down^^ lol say for fun...wow ty jasmin for her guitar tat she bless me:) HAPPY BADAE Austin:) jus heard tat austin badae going to hav BBQ so hope the ppl gone there hav fun^^ haha lazy so nt going...
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
wa today shiok shiok gonna hav free sakae treat from poh...was told tat 2pm meet at tm mrt so morning i do my hw then go meet them...2pm walk to mrt then saw ed n yz reach le so wait for poh....wa piang he so late-_- so we went to starhub there wait for poh n lol they go there for free cold drink n free show[Wall E] haha... i msg my sheperd n sheepmate earlier tat all wear green then stupid ed very wat lor nvr follow...then everyone wear except him-_- stupid brown haha...lol walk around at tm saw alot of ppl mostly wear green...so chiao haha...then walk walk till 3pm then go sakae at CS...sian sia nt really close conversation with them...haix zhe me ban how am i going to survive with them when i'm so quiet...i don dare to approach to them...3pm le we went to sakae n ordered alot but mostly ordered is lyk wasted...haha the poh la! buy so many miso soup jus to cover the junk food...fun arh haha...then er xing la lyk when u r very full then u see those slimy, squashy feeling...EEkk...my fav food is chawamushi mohahaha...so yummy!! wa piang poh damm disgusting sia keep store food inside his mouth! simply worst than a pig muhahaha...lol the edwin also another one but nt jia lat than poh haha...lol then keep giving poor feedback...haix ed n poh so devil...mi n yz so guai nvr ka jiao...then poh pay the food is so ex sia! heart pain for him...$100 plus siol...feel so ps sia next time wont go so ex place eat with him...haha then went to tm arcade...wow saw shang bo n others...wow
1st time see shang bo dance para para so ai zai sia!!! he dance abit kua zhang but he really pro la...then play afew games n go home le...lol sian sia jus a treat n play at arcade onli...lol then go wallet shop see any nice wallet...saw one la which is $29...haha poh waited for me which i don noe y...then go tgt to the traffic light then seperate le....reach home msg poh then start to blog n use facebook...haix heard tat sat no cell but outing at ECP so next week then ask hw lor...haha hope can finish up all my hw...sad sch reopen soon le really hope my back cut wont get caught... as for usual, do quiet time n nitz....Thank You Poh Huat for a wonderful treat^^
tats all folks,
Justin

Hey Peps,
2009 is a great experience with...i learn more to be independent n the walk with God...haha 2010 coming le, i don noe wat will happen coz i noe sec3 le, going to hav alot of things to study n stress to me is getting more n more...I jus pray tat time is unlimited for me with God^^ i will stay strong n be more on fire with God...haha alright today work 3pm but its 2.30pm actually so i late...haha ty God nvr kana scolded coz too many crew today n some is from downtown east attach to t2 mac work... wow adilah today mood nt very gd so nvr talk to her well haha n i work stalker, fries n runner...wa lunch got sushi eat sia coz the auntie go buy de then treat us eat...muhaha jus rmb tat tmr is poh treat at sakae...hehe cant wait sia^^ work 3pm-11pm n had invited 4ppl to christmas party^^ plus very tired sia coz walk around for so long:( then at nith very ps coz i heard joel shout at me HEY JUSTIN! wa piang all the customer look at me siol...ps haha then saw poh n jasmin too...very happy to see poh YEAH~~~ action haha...then ran to t3 mac take MCflurry cup n cap...damm tired haha then saw janet...11pm going home then go t3 mac 1st n find janet go home tgt...we chat alot n 18th will get pay so very happy haha...then sure go shopping at bugis street...maybe on tues ba haha...then bump adilah n rosy in bus...diao got misunderstood tat janet was my gf-_- haha then heard from janet tat joel n others went to t3 eat then tio caught saw janet at t3 mac working haha... lol today alot of indians at t2 arriving home siol...reach home abt 12am then bath le n blogging...do quiet time n nitz...lol msg poh tat y came airport n he said got core meeting so oo...sad worh go eat at t3 nvr cum t2 eat haha...
tats all folks,
justin

Hey peps,
wow thurs gonna hav free sakae treat from Poh...I CANT WAIT!!! haha don noe how much will it cost but hope nt let money against our happy mood outing...1st time sheperd n sheepmate outing sure gonna take alot of pics de^^ really happy tat poh invited me to sakae coz i nt really long with him n b4 i turn to his sheep he had already planned so really glad of his treat^^ wa sch reopen soon le so hw mus faster get it down:( haha ed lost his hw lol... wa shiok sia jus heard tat poh saw wu zun at ION orchard...haha 4pm went off to work... haix got to go budget terminal work coz nt enough crew...diao i go try lor also 1st time going there so quite excited...haha once go there, oh gosh the ppl to me is lyk retard n scary...some quite selfish nvr help n some jus simply ignore u...the place is super damm small to work...how would i wish to go t2 work sia... then really feel sian sia work all the way till 10pm... haha nvm la i jus keep thinking of cell lor haha...work fries n lobby... yea i brought my lunchbox to work...quite nice:) more food for me to eat...haha no la:) then 10pm took bus home...reach home abt 10.40pm...chat with poh awhile haha then bath...do quiet time n nitz....
tats all folks,
justin

Hey peps,
wa christmas is coming...New yr is coming... Muhahaa money money comes by! it making me crazy:) wake up at 11am then use com lor then go eat lunch with my mum...then took bus to work...while in the bus to airport, i've been thinking of happy things tat my cell care for me moments...lyk yz my best care sheepmate muhaha he consult me n pray for me worh n sean he also pei me quite well plus joel n jeremy lovely hug^^ jasmin pei me n jing wen laughter plus poh brainwashing me...haha ed i wont forget u...lol jus find something to add on haha yr lovely tagged at blog^^ seriously very gan dong from the cell^^ today work as runner n fries quite slack haha...but the stupid hisyam n huzaifa keep bully me lor haha i also bully the gals...diao-_-! work till 9pm n rush home...haha cook noodle coz hungry..duh...ya lah n really hope more cell outing coming soon n my hw will be done soon^^ nth to share as per normal do quiet time n nithz....
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
how shall i start? alright i was taking bus to church and bumped jasmin in a same bus...ate chicken rice and tio stomach ache very jia lat...so whole day nvr speak to ppl...sad:( i was ok with my feelings jus tat my stomach make me feel gao wei...i honestly say tat i was trying to use my stomach ache prob for excuse nt to talk...the meaning is lyk in yr heart u really wan to talk with tis person but u jus don noe how to start... i hav alot of doubts in life...i'm too timid to go for something unless its my 2nd try...i will really try my best to go for the 1st try... i noe the image may look scary but once u tried everything is going to be fine... i hope my heart will be open up more n step a higher level with God... today service is quite short arh nvm...after service, had a talk with poh... tis feeling is very stress n i was scared tat the feeling is lyk ytd scolding so creep:( after the talk, i feel wisdom came to me n i feel more understanding with my cell... starting is abit malu but facing the facts now is better than keeping prob n nt solve it...i found out myself tat sometimes i do things nvr think twice n don even noe y am i doing it... i hope tis will be a lesson learnt...next i going home, coz later have to work...then had a great talk with samantha in the bus and mostly talk abt gossip lol...haha at least tis is my 1st try talking to someone... then while walking home, God wake me up...deep down God says to me, face to the bright sight! God jus gave me a simple meaning and had let me throw away all my sadness...LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIGHT! i will rmb tis meaning and called my betrayer friend n told her straight.... Wat reason tat makes u hate me so much? Wat purpose to gain by keeping things to against me? i keep chant her and finally she nth to say n i heard she suddenly cried...i was stumbled! slowly comfort her when i was in the bus to airport n gd news is we became friends...i flip to my bible n saw tat Love Yr ENERMY in luke6:31... seriously it proves tat:) i hope looking at the bright sight will return my smile:) off to work till 9pm... went home praise the lord n nitz.... Poh: hey, i don noe y i keep saying i cant feel the love from you...is it becoz b4 tat things jus keep on puzzling my heart...mind jus stressing me up...i promise i will open my heart n really talk to ppl more...tis will be my challenge from you and i will keep it to my heart tat i still hav cell who keep supporting me^^ i can do it^^ don worry abt me le i will nt let u disappoint...ty being there for me^^ ty for the scolding^^plus my betrayer friend, actually she is my good friend, nt the best, n in the past we had gone through things tgt n share prob with each other...the reason we became enermies is becoz there is another gal who ka jiao my good friend's mind then end up something happen with me n her then end up enermy lor...shall nt say too exact coz i don wan things to get worst:)
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
i shall quit saying sian tis word...i don wan to be sian... i was working then rush to Jabez house...late abt 10min...suddenly bumped ed n garr at the bus stop... i said hi to them...garr respond to me but ed didn't...i thought we had patched back through msn but it sounds tat he still hates me... i feel worried n my heart feel puzzled... i don noe wat to do but keep myself quiet... i noe later will be having a scolding from poh n decided to control my feelings... i sitting aside n staring around hoping tat ed will later talk to me...yet it nvr happen so i noe he still hates me..i hav my own ans n don wish to talk but keep myself tightly so am i insecure?... past is past...i felt guilt scolding vulgar n being rude...wat shall i do to make him forgive me? i have many many troubles in my heart n nt just tis... i feel struggled n helpless...don noe who to account with...i will account to God but i also still ned a best friend to account in physically...the fact is i have none... jia juan is my only best friend but she is nt around... i wish her a happy badae coz today is her badae haha... i wan to account someone who i always trust n respect... i jus don noe y? i only close with gals but nt boys...is it becoz boys is too rough for me....i'm jus lyk a weak mouse tat ned someone to take care n concern... cell grp today is very on fire n i hope tis wont affect from my brokenness...God is my last hope...if i don hav his presence i would be lonely 4ever.... there is no worthy friends in tis world but God... i jus don noe y who am i in tis world? i hoping everyday hav a happy moments to keep but my life is totally different... i feel lyk a empty shell where ppl around me jus kick it around n don feel my presence tat I'm a living thing but a toy... after cell grp, we went to Melville park n i slack over there alone, preparing to face poh scolding and i found out one thing when i was at the basketball court alone... i found out only ed is my only pal from the cell who is really noe my presense and entertain me well...becoz of a foolish quarrel i ended up losing the one tat i should cherish on...he is the only one tat so called close to me which better than being myself alone... once being called out to see poh...he scolding is super super horrify me... y my anger jus giv me alot of trob which is unnecessarily to be happen...i hate myself! i jus couldnt forgive myself for being a loser who think myself a winner...i regret saying alot of harsh word at ed...i hope he really fogive me totally...y am i so aggitated for the prayer meeting? i'm nt part of changkat n y i am so selfish? i only get attention when i hav trob? if i'm having a great happy moments in my life, is it still being alone where i'm nt in the presence from this world? i don wan to be alone but no choice to be alone...i wan to have friends to talk with but there is none for me...i choose to seek a friend to be close with me but there is none suitable... i really wan to cried it out to remove my pain....is very easy for me to cry anytime coz i feel weak n depress...is it everything started of moving me with poh as sheperd n sheep? is it the jealousy tat keeps my life torture each day? am i going to see my sheperd n sheepmate having fun everyday where i feel myself being extra if i join them? i don wan to get deep from my jealousy, i wan to grow even better with the walk of faith in God... i felt having a sheperd lyk don feel his presence with me...so is it without a sheperd or having it is no difference coz the reason is i nvr felt his LOVE... its been a few months with him and yet the feeling with him is jus lyk the starting of knowing him in one or two days... i noe if he read tis he sure heart-broken but for me is a final fact tat me n him....even if i said sry for a million times but my heart, my brokeness is still arounds me n couldnt take out... i had too much burden in me as i don noe how to handle my life... even if i get scolded tat i nvr did wrong, i still accept it coz i had given up my fairness in tis world...WORLD IS UNFAIR SINCE I WAS BORN....my smile no longer exist in tis world but even if i smile, tat is nt my real smile but i force to it...i may sound so dramatic, who cares? i wan my real life be back, a life with a smile in it! but when will i recieve it permantly n nt temporily... SORRY to the one i being rude! Sorry to the one i been acting childish infront of you! Sorry tat i waste my time with you! God bless me for no vulgar n rudeness life in me plus get rid of my drinking habit.... I feel weak, feel dying soon...
tats all folks,
justin

Hey peps,
wa sian diao sia after the camp whole day i was in a bad mood...y mus tis bad mood keep coming after me? seriously i hate to get angry-_- actually today hav pm at nick house which starts at 12.30pm where ed last nith msg back...so i keep praying tat my work will end 12plus so i could go for pm...coz usually i end work at abt 2.30pm...hey the next day i went to work which is today, i indeed finish work at 12.30pm
i was so happy to hear tis great news so i msg ed tat i will be going pm, call him nt to bang sei me...after awhile i go check my hp while working, i saw he wrote 10am and i called him so he said it change to 10am...i was then bad mood lor coz at 1st i was working as runner then 12.30pm punch out ready to go pm...coz of his stupid nonsense has coz me a big trouble which i ned to beg my manager to continue work...if i nvr punch out at 12.30pm i still working as runner...so after i punch in again, i was told to wash all the trays in an hr...u guess how many trays i had to wash? at least a 400!!! no joke! coz the lobby ppl none of them doing trays!!! i was sian diao mus wash so many trays, dry up le still mus put at the counter area...it kills me! my both shoulders has injured, muscle cramp, becoz of his selfishness i had so much work today... around 2pm i beg manager to change me back as runner...then another manager jus came named wong who is so called ah gua manager...i was tio bully by him!!! i jus work as runner then he called me to go wash all the trays again! i said my both shoulders had injured...he said i was giving excuse n scolded me for nth!!! hey who is the one in the morning clean the trays? IS ME ALRIGHT! without me there will be even more trays lyk 600plus...ITS INSANE!!! Fuck you ed becoz of u i get scolded for nth! becoz of u i was get bullied by a sissy manager! becoz of yr selfishness it shows i'm nt part of changkat PM...THEN FINE NEXT TIME I WONT BE GOING WAT STUPID PM COZ I NT PART OF CHANGKAT! i was super angry in mac by keep washing trays and i was being bride by the gay where i recieve $10 voucher at airport which is only $10, nt fair! then saw nick, andrew, austin, kian hao, grace, joshua kong, yok foong, audrey at t2 mac eat...3.30pm going home le which is lyk at last coz i damm worn out!!! then go see my duty list where one whole week i don hav any duty!!!! CCB i no ned holiday lor KNN the manager BS arh coz of the misunderstandings mus torture me lyk tat meh! i NED MONEY SIA! seriously now i noe ppl in tis world is selfish! they jus think of themselves!!!
reach home slp till nith then use com... do quiet time then nithz....
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
today si bei tired at home do nth...I sian sian do nth nth nth!!!! i use facebook to post my camp pic n video... so i saw ed post to me which says Frog...Frog...Frog...
lol comment comment le lyk tio offence...knn sia him sound lyk he so smart worh~~~ i don noe y la my mood really been very bad...how would i hope i will be working 2day...sian sia!!!! i heard janet n wc break le, its been a mth...so whole day i was lying on my bed n really feel sian...i chat with ed jus to try to hav fun with him but he sound so serious n end up a quarrel...he thinks himself so pure n smart...BU YAO LIAN! sian la-_-
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
i am so worn out after the camp and getting muscles ache everywhere...slept well wakaka:) then morning go tkss buy sch books 1st coz i really scared if i nvr get to changkat...i nvr say no faith to go changkat but i was jus to get prepared la...then go semei exchange my popular card then go back home on blog my camp post then see pics in facebook...diao nt many pics from kung fu panda...sad sia:( then go ed blog see his post i wanna cry liao coz he nvr post abt me worh~~~i jio him go mac nvr write haix...sad sia:( then go work at 4pm and work till 11pm...while working at nith, saw a gay manager...his name is Wong la but the action n his talk is so sissy cant stand it sia!!! lol then go home blogging...praise God on quiet time...haha fun la^^ excited to go cell n service man^^
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
wa last day of the camp celebration and each day from the camp tat had started, indeed changed me alot and i had cured from my brokeness, nt fully but i noe there will be always a day for me to get a break through:) i rmb from the service tat pas. Pat said: Compassion, Servants king and Brokeness...Morning had a devo. and i could hear through the prayer tat everyone from my team had really improved on their spiritual life:) today outdoor game will be at chinese garden...my grp in section1 so we played afew rounds of game...then feed the tortise with cucumber n small food packet...I HATE ANIMALS!!! I tio scare lor then halfway feed and behind me got a stupid tortise almost bite my leg...Noon damm sian so rest over there awhile...Back to camp, faster charge my hp n called my bao bei ed haha...miss him alot:) then ate chicken rice n go for service...Past, Presense, Future will be the best day for me to praise God. EVERYDAY:) after service, I'm super crazy for God and went up to the stage and praise! then valerie badae got surprise from her team...Meet cell and plan for Jabez surprise for his badae at 12am...then went back to the bunk n write dairy when the boys go prank all the camp comm by throwing salt water, soup water n flour...Outside is lyk chaotic WW3 man!!! then i go slp le n don noe y jabez surprise lyk no surprise lol... then 12.20am i slp till 1am plus the boys go prank me when i was slping...i don noe y ben suddenly pull my slping bag n put something inside...i was very angry n shouted CCB and shouted them stop it nt funny!at the whole boys in the bunk... i was so stun tio tat i don noe y i shouted bad word at them...so i continue my slp...then i touch wat they put n i feel the object is cold and i thought is ice so hack care...then suddenly my butt as if someone pocking me then a guy told me inside they put a frog...i was stun n get out from my slping bag and throw at ben told him to take out immediatly!!! then i faster pack my bags n leave with a angry mood...i scolded them n ask who is the mastermind but no one dares to own up so ho sei i went out n go to a sheltar n rest... poh came to comfort me and joel too...then all the camp comm came to they boys bunk and i was back to poh bunk n rest...every1 did 10 pumping from punishment...and those who prank me had went out for some talk with jeremy n joel... nt jus a frog even toothpaste n milo too...somemore some boys went to bath at the gals toilet!!!can u imagine!!! tat moment simply damm angry so listen to songs n slp to cool me down...ty to yz for pei me la:) then wake up 8am plus feel better and accept their apologies...then had to clean up the area and also had roti prata for breakfast...msg ed abt tat incident la...then alot of ppl keep asking me last nith wat happen lol...so many paparazi worh~~~ then took bus to church with poh...then took bus 10 home....straight away bath n pack then slp...ed called me then we had chat la...then wake up eat dinner then do quiet time then slp...
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
2day plan to wake up at 5am to bath, coz i feel sticky n itchy haha:)after bath then go back to my bunk n read bible till 6.20am! prepared for morning devotion then ed wake up n 1st thing he do is to cum up to my bunk for aircon worh~~~wa lao giv him aircon then he bully me with his kung fu pinch at me! ARGGHHH!!! then ken n yz came too...wa sian diao everyone worship the aircon and nt prepare for the devotion haha:) starting of my grp devo. we shared our walk with God n wat God spoke to us then we followed by our pray then worship...we had our breakfast and followed by our service but b4 tat, i keep begging for coins to buy drink but no one had...those hav one so selfish nvr admit de:( once service start, i feel tired n no energy then fall asleep throughout the service...keep pinch myself to stay awake! after service we had an outdoor game...HUAT ARH! can go look the real world n get as much coins to exchange man!!! it will be Amazing race:) very exciting and suddenly feel energised lol...the game will be 2hr 30min...to find clues we went alot of places lyk citylink, bugis street, work buildings and alot more...then last desternation point will be at marina barrier if i'm nt wrong...then me, kenji n jollina volunteer to do sacrifice for the team... haha had to pluck nicholas leg hair to make camp K.O word at the masking tape... then ldrs gave me 2 small ball masking tape to put at my nostril n leg in between the toe...so kenji mus use his tongue to take the 2small masking tape out then put at jollina face...eew the feeling is so gross if u volunteered haha... kenji keep saying licking my leg very shiok lyk tasting lime...haha i keep laughing...then heard edwin going to leave camp to celebrate his ah mah badae...do u think can i trust him? haha then i play with him through the precious time but still feel sad without him pei me, only he, i will feel gd:) hope the stupid ed wont get proud-_-nt gay arh coz he is my closest sheepmate:) eat dinner n changed to red tee for our coming bazzar:) then had a impacted service from pas. Pat and bacoz of him, i felt God touched me and healed my brokeness:)after the altar call by walking through the secret door(stupid door), ED called me n yz to see poh...I was shocked ed still around n thought he had left me haha:( poh said to us,"Go for God whole heartedly" then i left 30min to be with ed once he left me...I miss him alot:( as if he going to die soon haha...haha i jus rmb ed save my life, he gave me a word[tissue]tat make me rmb tat my hp n wallet still left in the toilet so i faster get it back...Ty God i got it back:) once ed left, bazzar starts... we had nail polish, water bomb, message and tug war too:) Earned $51 thousand plus then go back to my bunk 1am and lights off:)
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
2day wake up late abt 6.55am! haix i damm ps lor i told my sheep mate[ed,yz]tat 7am must meet at bedok mac to eat breakfast then go hua li xuan meet the ppl to the camp. Ed help me packed a burger for me lol service tax for him $1...In the bus, we sit with 3teams...we played 20cent game n chop chilli chop, its damm sian lar but still mus cooperate lor haha...once we reach to the campsite, tis is the most exciting part! i was shock tat the campsite us like a pig farm to me! i feel lyk wasted $110 on tis poor facilities...i in grp5 kung fu panda and we prepared many cute cheers plus our identity with a mickey mouse headband... my team mates r Nicholas, 2 Caleb, kenji, terry, Tiffany, Hannah, jollina, Shawn, rystin, Jacqueline and mi so total 12 haha... me, kenji n terry 1st thing is to check the toilet n wow its exposed, rusty n small...then we also had foreigners to join each team and we hav Nathan to join us... next we had games activities lyk tresure hunt and some food challenge to see who eat finish 1st...then 2pm plus we had resting time till 5.55pm and also each tribe to prepare their skit for the Campfire...6pm had dinner... after a rinse shower, met a stupid smelly dog tat keep following me... tio scare la haha i scared of dog if u don noe lol...sian sian standing one side see ed tribe prepare skit...haix my tribe sad sia no one came to prepare skit only some explanation of wats going on for the skit...6pm at last eat dinner:)afterwards we had a powerful service talk from pas. Pat...tis yr in my life the most impacted in tis camp is tat I 1st time cry for lord with true tears mercy and also the bext yr i ever had...God simply touched my heart truly deep in me and I experience wat God had touched me...after tat we had campfire!!! everyone get their seats at the backyard and alot of them keep using torchlight to shine on my eyes:( Ouch! haha! then we had perform our skit well even though we nvr had a rehearse:) Red tribe win the best team and whoo!!! Yes i won my sheperd n sheepmate! MUHAHAHAA!!! then go back to my bunk to wash up n had a great slp..Suay or Lucky for me leh???coz ppl keep asking for my place for Aircon! i felt guilt when seeing them no aircon then i shiok for myself!haix:( i hate tis thick-skinned boi cuming up to my bunk for my air-con and somemore his my sheepmate, somemore beat me up as if when ppl think we were gaying!!! Is EDWIN la for Goodness sake!!! i really feel suay he slp near me sia! haha overall is cool even though the facilities is poor! hope those guys could slp well and most importantly kung fu panda you're the best! more to share soon:)
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
wont update much coz nth to say la...haha boring day marh^^ today no work coz told my manager got camp preparation stuff to do as tmr WILL BE OUR CHURCH CAMP!!! I'm so excited haha!!! i love it! haha so 2pm meet my camp mates and we do some duty roster n prepare for the cheer la...haha we went to a void deck to do and rain comes by... then nicholas trying to use black paint to make one side of our eyes a black ring...so tiam you be our mascot n nicholas bully lor go make his face lyk Justice Bao haha...whole face turn black after cleanse it haha... he so black gosh! then we had our duty roster n i duty for the admin...ai zai sia me haha...then we had our cheer...after we prepared Nicholas cheer arh then i still hav my cheer marh but prob is everyone went home...wa the feeling is lyk Justin who wan yr cheers waste of time...wa tat feeling haix...sry arh coz i'm a sensetive guy but after tat i be fine haha... then everyone went home le... i put my things then go out with my mum for lunch then 1st time use POSB bank machine to withdraw money...the feeling is lyk shiok la but i noe i mus be thrifty worh~~~ took out $100... $50 gave my mom as i own her money...haha then $50 is for my spent coz its my 1st pay salary haha... then go home blogging then dinner went to my grandma house eat claypot rice...mmm delicious hhaa!! then really get excited for camp sia tmr!!! haix prob is mus bring a heavy bags:( nvm cheer up haha!!!
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
wow now is December and u noe wat? Christmas is coming!!! 2009 has coming to an end le so fast wow!!! i also getting further away from my youth but my heart always stays young n positive^^ time flies...camp K.O is on tis sat so i cant post on tis 3days haha...today i having a off from work n felt super sian la...nth to do at home jus to watch tv...actually watching movie with my sheep mate new moon which ed requested but i told poh n it end up our movie cancelled coz its a demonic show...i feel shameful in front of poh lor keep disappointing him nowadays... my heart just pumping very fast n scared of wat poh look at me... i really feel stressed!!! arghh! when will tis be an end for me? the Pain and Worries... maybe i was jus thinking too much but really hope my path with God would nvr come an end... i mus prove to myself n my dearest ones tat i really wan a break through in my life... i really getting worried tat Changkat still nt yet accept me in their schools... Dec le really hope Changkat could accept me... Justin JYJY there is a long way to reach the peak of the mountain and dificulties coming upon me has getting more complicated... Is time to get strong! Is time to seek my goals!
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
haix overslept again...simply don noe y:( but ty god i nvr late for work jus nice
9am reached la...then my duty list wrote i do runner but my manager called me to do lobby...somemore whole day lor nt fair! wa damm tired n worn out to work liao...actually work till 4pm then adilah called me to stop work at 3pm... then faster go home bath le then go church do the camp stuff...wow 3 teams at the carpark 7th floor... saw ed n yz too haha... diao but differ traid sad lor...then saw kelvin be the mascot! oh my gosh he is so gay wearing the thighs n mini pants...eww so girlish dressing! but i respect his sacrifice to the team nt bad nt bad haha... our team, Kung Fu Panda make our cute panda flag n panda hairband...haha our team is so cute^^ then yz one is sparten...eww too man lyk wierd la haha... then finish abt 7.20pm while other teams has gone for dinner...yz told me poh wan meet us for lunch but msg poh say got camp thing so cancel liao...edwin then jio me tmr go watch new moon...twilight show oh gosh he turned demonic man!!! haha hope tmr will be fun^^
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
i am so guilt hear poh scolding... i noe i'm at fault and i don noe how to face him le...i hope i still could hold on my work without interfere any prob in cell...i really hope to work coz i ned money!!! i had prob with financial...i own my mum money, i ned to put in back my value wat i had bought lyk hp and my genting trip money...tis will sound a big cost so tats y i don wish to lose job... i really hope to quit tis job soon so i work each day 8hr to get better pay...how am i going to survive between job n church... i feel devil has used tis to make me away with the relationship with God...but at least i had been warn by God....i will nt let tis interfere my walk with God and i hope to giv my reason to poh...i don wish my mood will affect with camp.... i now feeling moody:( haix MONEY MONEY MONEY!!!! hate tis kind of financial prob...own money also...haix jasmin own $3 poh $10 n mum$40 plus...
shouldn't had spent food money at roxy...shouldn't have eat...ARGGHHH!!! i feel so stressed!!!! when will tis be an end???
tats all folks,
justin

Hey Peps,
2day thought 9am work and i don noe y is 8am so my manager put me in 10am and i really feel sian diao coz working less hour for 2day...nt really less if i didnt go prayer meeting la abt work till 8pm...8hrs leh can work alot of money worh~~~ coz i really wanna go prayer meeting so y mus i be greedy with so much money for...tis few weeks nvr slp well sia keep sleep at 1am plus...after 3pm finish work, faster take bus 24 to yz house for PM but once i reach is lyk finishing soon le and feel empty when it has finish a healing pray for grace which i don reall feel i came for PM..sianz...then we shared our feeling and had heard tat the PM has improved alot.... su tieng came too... after PM, beyon n garrick went home le...then left me, ed, yz, nick n su tieng...we ordered KFC and eat..haha don feel lyk to eat greesy food so ordered marsh potato then lol nick wan his pepsi back where we onli had 3pepsi with us n nt 4 la...then use yz pc play la...abt 7plus went home...nick's mum brought us home and eat dinner le...then do quiet time n read bible then slp... i felt guilt coz todaY do something foolish in the morning... i repent during quiet time so ya la...i drank beer wih empty stomach abt half of the can then throw away... i had a stomach ache in the end...should be feeling stressed in work coz i had to face many customer order which make me feel over work out then drank beer without thinking twice... i stupid la! haix nvr drink beer anymore man!!!
tats all folks,
justin