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Hey Peps,
wow its thursday^^ today is crew outing day where we will be celebrating at downtown east eating BBQ food^^ i noe tat is a hectic day in sch but i will try to turn up if can...hey at least i still rmb tat today is crew outing haha...hehe nt sure whether huzaifa n iqbal got go anot...i worry got alot of hw sia! if really hav, then maybe i nt going le....sad but no choice:( how would i wish to hav fun with my crew's friend then eat tgt n take pic tgt^^ morning deco the classrm...nt much coz 7.30am mus go hall la...nvr go PM today...1st time bom tang feel so loser on myself tat i nvr put God in 1st place...haix Lord pls forgive me tis time for being so selfish:( Then go hall,
to do class attachment at my form class hahaha..... shu hui n janet also concern me abt my current problem... i feel touched tat i hav 2 friends who is so worthy to me n its priceless to hav a bestfriends lyk them.... today lesson nth mch special....our class had prepared class tee for our class n gonna to buy the tee soon...yea i'm so excited^^ haha btw i hav another new kor in class name hao lei....his a funny joker who keep on doing lame things haha enjoyed^^ after sch, nvr go for drama lesson told ms tan i hav bbq...but actually i went to IT lab with syafiqah to deco the class...we print many cute cartoons to paste on our class noticeboard...finish up everything abt 5pm as mr rahim hav urgent things to do... haha help xiao fei to print out her DnT project... go home alone coz don wan be syafiqah gooseberry....reach home le, i close my door...i lie down on my bed n think of Joalina... wat mistake i did...but i jus couldnt think well but started to think more possible of y she trying to avoid me... its been so stress tis few days.... i use my com n started to type vulgarities at my blog....although some ppl may lyk it n some comment abt it wat happen.... i will reply... y mus i reply to coz more trouble? reason is i wan some idea from ppl y tis happen? wat is the reason to hav tis problem? its all abt finding some points for me to noe wats ppl view on it so i hav a rough idea so tat i wont think too much... around 11plus edwin started to call me wat happen as i msg him i feel lyk changing church coz i couldnt face some ppl in church...it jus make me feel pain n miserable.... i told edwin all abt my trouble, he said seek God but my heart is still so confuse so nvr really follow wat he said...after tat had a long time msging with poh...i started to feel more open after his some good points tat make me feels awake n ease... he told me to stop creating trouble n start to save trouble... nt jus wrote vulgarities in my PM,i also said to zone6 ldr bad words... i was losing out of my mind to say him tat.... y he hav the rith to scold me selfish...which part? haix nicholas saw it so he scolded me...sadly, i rude back to him again...it was so Chaos tat i couldnt take it!!!! ty God poh huat is the one who willing to help me in all his best.... i'm touched...slowly abt 1am, i went back to my bed n slp..... tears jus started flowing down.... my heart is so stuffy tat i keep squeezing my chest till it turns red... in my mind, i pray tat God will you giv me a wonderful day once i wake up?
tats all folks,
justin