Do you Know him?

Hey Peps,
sunday morning actually wont late for cell de, is becoz i wake up then go slp again lol....then faster pack le go church for 1st service....very sleepy lor ytd slp till 1am....hav fun till slp so late=( reach church ty god it jus started so should be on time....then pastor yang share abt the rain of harvest....nt really understand but agar agar know abit la....haha very excited for 3rd service at 1st but then later on poh telling me off the prob at katong shopping centre.... i turn bad mood lor....BS is a duh but nvr admit infront of him...feel how wierd is him tat he still can joke with me after tat....i noe poh wanting me to smile n happy... sad is i couldnt...i wanna to smile but it jus feel so nt gan yuan in my heart....idk y? maybe or should be my coming badae yet poh still tick me off ba.... as we walking to parkway KFC meet cell, i wanted to listen my music to cool down my bs feeling...lol poh keep asking me to stop listening music....i feel lyk asking him, even if i nt listening....i also wont talk to them de wat....i nt close with them either-_-! if edwin, garr or yz around, i nth to say wat.... haix i noe is still my fault nt talking with them, but i alr had prob communicate with cell le, so how i expect myself tat i can really talk with them fluent leh? all i say is hi r u ok n sch lifestyle...tats all-_-! i noe i had given poh huat alot of disappointment n disguise, feel so shameful tat i nvr prove to him wat i can make him proud.... reach KFC, ordered food...eat le n went window shopping, to let sean seat my area...don wan him to be emo too:( actually i was looking my bro sam but he don wan reply me wheres him;( then 12plus go back to KFC.... haix sian sia i'm actually excited for the coming 3rd service yet giving glum faces....i still alone n took a paper n pen out...i wrote wat i nt happy at...did write some bad word... all i wan is jus make myself feel shiok n nt bin chao chao face....as i keep writing, i feel hot liao! write even fiercer..... caught poh attention n he saw i wrote bad word... he came n snatched the paper i holding on.....i hold back with force n he straight my face he say don test his patient! wa, tat moment was about let it all go my frustra.... coz of his sudden reaction tat make me feel awkward n angry....as cell going back to church, ed n yz want to pei me.....i ignored them, sry coz i'm in a hot boiling point!!! thinking tat, how sad my badae from cell surprise is a sad ending.... then poh told me all the surprise n no longer surprise to me coz of my attitude.... seeing myself doing without thinking twice n make poh once again disappointed n disguise me with a higher chance....i was touched after poh had prepared a mth for my badae....he said he will treat me to a high class place n eat....i'm shock tat poh gave me tis gift! after tat i think, if we two eating tgt only, i jus scared tat nth to talk to him n wat will happen while we eating??? i really feel stress but i noe he as my Shepherd, trying his best to show his love...so i really hope i will learn from my unnecessarily mistake....noeing myself being stupid n crazy scratching n pinching of myself so scary.... once reach church, ty god i had cool down my emotion....y am i so SENSITIVE? becoz of sensitive it makes me easily offended ppl:( sad sia!!!! today service, pas. JC shared was nice n funny....then we had a coming even name LOve is...? then also hav free popcorn n candy floss^^ after service, been waiting for the surprise la....heard tat many ppl from our cell is leaving...so i bet n thought there is no surprise at all, almost feel lyk going home do hw 1st but joel said go as a cell to eat at 2nd floor so i go join them for awhile....suddenly, someone sing happy badae song.... wa piang tat moment i was shocked n ps lor....then 1st n 2nd floor cell ppl sing tgt too.....wa!!! i was touched n surprised! haha the feeling is so cool! eaten the yummy chocolate cake n recieve a nice badae present too^^ nice clothes:) ty cell^^ took bus home 1st coz ned go my xiao gu house to celebrate my yeye badae n me too:) haha then ty xiao gu for the present^^ ate steamboat n yu sheng over there:) yummy n 11pm reach home:) had a wonderful time during my badae, sad is my hw nt done haha....tmr copy in sch ba lol~~~
tats all folks,
justin